Kapag dumating ang ganitong pagkakataon na tatanungin mo ang sarili mo kung "Kaya ko pa ba?" nagkakaroon ka na ng pag-aalinlangan sa iyong sariling kakayahan at abilidad.

Lahat naman ng tao ay dumadating sa ganitong sitwasyon. But basically this could be answered by another question, "Ikaw ba yung tipo ng tao na sumusuko at umaayaw?". Definetely we will urgently say that "Of course not! I'm not a coward."

Hindi masamang umayaw. Practically, why put your self in the battle which is not worth fighting for? We have to choose our battles..little battles maybe..then another step to a bigger battle..until you are well equiped to face the biggest battles and  challenges ahead.

The battle is over. I've learned a lot, yes, but I have no more guts to continue what I have started.

I gave my self a lot of chances that maybe somehow darating yung time na makakapag-adjust ako in the way that they wanted me to be. It molded me to a different me, a new me. I learned to accept my weaknesses and embrace my crafts. Pero kahit alam kong kaya ko, I am still going back to what I am and what can I do na doon ako komportable. Komportable.

A lot may say "push you self to the limit". Pero pano ka kaya makakarating sa limit na yun?

As a person, alam ko na di pa ito yung limit ko. I can do more much better than this. I can excel as high as the mountain. But if you are not happy anymore and your emotions are killing you softly, I doubt if I can be able to push my self to the limit.

Time has come that I need to decide. I need to move on. Noon lagi kong tinatanong kung ano yung trigger point for me to come up with the final decision. Lagi kong sinasabi sa sarili ko na "Kaya pa naman eh".. And I am hoping that somehow, everything will change sa lahat ng aspect.

Lahat naman di nadadaan sa magic. Lahat pinaghihirapan. Kung kelangan ng sakripisyo, e di magsakripisyo. Pero lahat ng bagay natatapos din. We will always ask, "When will be the end?".

Tayo lang ang makakapagsabi nun kung hanggang saan lang tayo. Lahat dapat may bouderies, may cut-off....may limitasyon.

All things will never be the same again. I will never be as productive as what I am the last time around. I used to be not a problem maker. That is why it is hard for me to be the same again.

I know God has given me the right sign to think of what's ahead of me. Not as what was dictated, not as what was promised. I want the way of life that I want.